Yesterday, I attended my last Doctor's appointment of 2024, and what a year it's been!!
Okay, I know it's been a really long time since I've posted. There are a number of reasons for that. Basically, my brain runs a triathlon every minute and if I sit here to type, it will take HOURS. Then I will come back and add more. Re-read, rearrange, add, subtract, lather, rinse, repeat. 💤
I started writing this on Facebook because I'm old and my friends and family are old too. "Hey, wait a minute!" . . (I heard it). Thennn, I remembered I started this amazing blog months ago! So, here's a quick medical review and update. Adrian will have to be a different post. As I am coming back the 8th time, it's been 5 hours since I began. 🤪
I decided this time last year that 2024 would be MY year to get a handle on my health. I had some headaches that stemmed from serious neck and back pain which was either due to STRESS or busted up discs. My doctor, at the time, insisted that my headaches were due to taking too much Tylenol - rebound headaches. I needed to ditch her. It was really overdue. I found the woman that was closest to me. (Really great way to choose a Physician, right?) I used all the filters, don't worry. I called and made an end of January appointment. Ashley is an APRN and has been an absolute gift! If you need a new PCP in the Concord area, DM me and I will give you her info. She. IS. Incredible!
Thank GOD I had her in place when I suffered Conversion Disorder 7 months ago (wow). I believe, and I have told Ashley this, that my mind was finally able to stop because she was brought into my life. It was the most unbelievable experience anyone could imagine. Presenting itself as a stroke, and having to recover from all of these stroke-like symptoms, including losing my voice for months (!!) was, and will continue to be a challenge.
The amount of support that I receive from handfuls of professionals from Physical, Speech, and Occupational Therapy to Neurology, Psychology and seemingly everything in between has left me with considerable amounts of knowledge and understanding of how the mind and body work. I have many new diagnoses, and I am learning to embrace each one as a gift. Sounds silly, I know. But, it is how I know I am alive! I am in constant pain, but I am alive!
Since beginning my recovery, I have been more in tune with vibrations and energy. I have always been intuitive; we all are to a degree, but now I'm next level. It's not just a gut feeling. I feel everything, everywhere! I feel buzzing through my body. I feel vessels and tendons and joints and bones. Medications are helping and my team (they love when I call them that) work together from every angle to coordinate the best care designed for me.
While I have my voice back, I am working from my home studio with the flexibility to take breaks whenever I need. I can't sit for long. I can't stand for long. I am mostly uncomfortable and exhausted. I am not driving to a studio to do a 4-5 hour radio show. Losing that income has been almost too hard, but and we've made a lot of adjustments and qualify for more assistance. We will be okay.
I have a peace within me that I don't think I have ever had. Pretty sure that could be the meds too LOL But my GAF meter used to ping in the red, now it doesn't even register.
I don't bother worrying about things that are out of my control because I realize I am not in control at all. Any time I demanded control from God, things didn't turn out right and I had to double back. But once you just say "screw it" and simply BELIEVE that you and your family will be taken care of, it happens quickly. It's called the power of positive thinking / the law of attraction . . the stuff I've been preaching my whole life. Imagine that being next level. Sheeesh!! 🙏🏼
I have also learned how creative I really am!! My brain works differently now and am able to visualize an end result, then work the steps backwards to get to the beginning. I enjoy landscaping - I call it land design since I carve the earth with my very cool Japanese Weeding Sickle. (you need one of these. i don't care who you are) I also enjoy set design for simple photography, and my greenhouse! Okay, maybe you'd call it a dining room.
The friends that regularly check up on me . . well, I am just so blessed.
All of the same challenges are there. Adrian is still Autistic with Tourette's, DMDD and ADHD. We're forever finding new avenues to navigate this, and I continue to dedicate my life to his comfort and those around him/us. Adison is an all-star. He gets on the Honor Roll, almost never complains, unless it has to do with taking the dog for a walk. Anna Lynn broke her arm doing squirrel type things!
So, yep. More posts are needed!
Merry Christmas! 🎄
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